When is it time to put me first???
When my body can no longer stand.
When my mind is no longer my own.
When my soul is drenched in others blame games.
Diary when is it gonna be ok for me to come first???
By me coming first I mean my decisions on what to eat, what to feel, what to do with my spare time….. when will I stand up and say ENOUGH???
Uuuuuummmmm NOW 🙂
I can no longer allow others to stop me from wanting more for myself. I am just as much to blame as them for allowing them that type of control for so long.
No more control!!!!
I am a big girl hell I AM A WOMAN and I DO know what is good for me!!!!
Diary its time to take back control over all aspects of my life and enjoy the adventure 🙂
I am ready!!!!!!!!
I have to admit I missed working out this morning 😦
I told myself that even on my challenge rest days I was gonna get up and do the active recovery workout in Core De Force but the alarm went off and my body didnt budge.
I have been so sore with this program … its been a while since I have used my weights… so naturally my body called hell more like demanded a break so I happily obliged this morning 🙂
I also talked hubby into crawling back into bed and watching a movie with me… that right there is the best way to start your day 😉
I cant feel bad about doing this … feeling bad Diary will only make me feel like I didnt hold fast to my commitments and this will start to ROB me of my happiness in my weight loss. I am not about to let that happen.
I have to look at that extra time I spent with hubby this morning as a much needed time to help us both reconnect to each other …. and that connection goes hand in hand with my emotional well being which ties into my weight loss 🙂
These times being seen as useful reconnection times really outweigh the times when I try to start seeing it as wasted time. Holding true to this mindset Diary I find myself not only changing my views on how exercise can be implemented into my life as a healthy habit but also growing my relationships stronger at a much more intimate level.
Having that mental flexibility really does give you the control back into enjoying your healthier lifestyle.
The I Matter Movement has begun for myself……..
I am no longer happy with not doing the things I use to to feel like a confident badass woman. Now before you start about natural and inner beauty shining to radiate confidence yes I believe in all that too but there is something to my lashes/eyebrows being done and the lip gloss on that makes me feel like I can conquer the day true girlboss fashion 😉 Regardless if I am in heels, wedges, sweat pants, or tshirts I can totally move mountains on these days.
Somewhere I had lost the pizzazz to keep my hair edgy/spunky looking, my eyebrows waxed, and my lashes going strong…. one time in my life these things used to be so important for me to feel like I have the world at my hands. These things being done and maintained really helps me to feel more empowered. I am not gonna pretend I am not this kind of woman anymore bc I so am THIS woman and it is time I embrace it 🙂
I like the nicer things of life which doesnt make me feel bad anymore and then there is a side to me that loves to help, to run free in a meadow, and feel mud between my toes… these things do not make me weird, stuck up, or any other negative words I have heard in the past… nope these things just make me one wonderful human being 😉
Its time to embrace all of who I am.