Why don’t we notice little things until after the moment has long past???
I mean I would rather love to bask in the glow while its happening instead of always doing it in conversations…lol
Thursday I took my kids school shopping before the fiasco of non acceptance 2017 took place yesterday (thats another story for another time 😉 )
My thinking never crossed to how school shopping for my kids use to be in the past… to me it was a routine day of picking up this, going there to drop this off… you know the list of to dos to complete but to my kids it had to feel AMAZING!!!!
Every year until this year they would experience this scenario Diary……
“Grab something they wanted beyond measure to only get crushed with no how about this one its cheaper 😦 As a mom at the time it felt more like survival for me instead of crushing a child’s heartfelt wants and granted I never thought about it like that until TODAY.”
Thursday I got to see my kids go through the aisles and pick what they wanted for school supplies and backpacks 🙂 Not once did I have to say Hey what about this one unless it was to help a sista out with color matching..lol… making it a TOTALLY fun event for all of us instead of the dreaded, angry shopping that always took place 🙂
Sometimes I have to pinch myself in AMAZEMENT on how things are being set in motion for me and my family … lol
Diary I am doing it…. I am changing everything negative one day at a time…. I am CREATING my dream life!!!!
Yesterday a good friend/fellow coach pointed out how I have been more focused on how I feel body wise than looking healthy. And for a brief moment the statement twisted something inside me but I quickly hid it by discussing something else further… you know how we are as women… we divert the conversation when SHIT gets a little too real. Not even realizing I was doing this we got into another discussion but that statement lingered and my subconscious knew I would want to investigate it later on.
And wouldn’t you know it Diary it came right back up in my head this morning during my meditation 🙂 The perfect chance to just sit and listen to what you have to tell yourself…so to speak 😉
Why had I stopped focusing on my outside???
I now know why I rushed my friends statement under the rug bc I was uncomfortable with REALLY looking at why I stopped focusing on my outside. I wish I could say it was from me not being petty but no….. the truth is for too long I have been focused on how I feel bc of my fibromyalgia. Questions that use to never come up now plague my days…..How does your body feel after eating, How much pain throughout the day did you have and What stressful body wise activities have you done today 😦
Instead of allowing my condition to help me it has become MY stopping point 😦
Talk about a low blow to my psyche this morning.
Spending some time in front of my mirror seeing for the first time with new eyes what my body really looks like was met with tears, wows, and you look beautiful girl.
For the first time in months I didnt wake up asking how I felt either…that SHIT is stopping too 😉
I am gonna wake up, breathe in this wonderful life and know that I am gonna make a difference today 🙂
I define me not the other way around!!!!! Its time I start living that way 🙂
I have to admit I missed working out this morning 😦
I told myself that even on my challenge rest days I was gonna get up and do the active recovery workout in Core De Force but the alarm went off and my body didnt budge.
I have been so sore with this program … its been a while since I have used my weights… so naturally my body called hell more like demanded a break so I happily obliged this morning 🙂
I also talked hubby into crawling back into bed and watching a movie with me… that right there is the best way to start your day 😉
I cant feel bad about doing this … feeling bad Diary will only make me feel like I didnt hold fast to my commitments and this will start to ROB me of my happiness in my weight loss. I am not about to let that happen.
I have to look at that extra time I spent with hubby this morning as a much needed time to help us both reconnect to each other …. and that connection goes hand in hand with my emotional well being which ties into my weight loss 🙂
These times being seen as useful reconnection times really outweigh the times when I try to start seeing it as wasted time. Holding true to this mindset Diary I find myself not only changing my views on how exercise can be implemented into my life as a healthy habit but also growing my relationships stronger at a much more intimate level.
Having that mental flexibility really does give you the control back into enjoying your healthier lifestyle.
Why do I feel like screaming diets dont work????
Ok maybe I am being a little over dramatic but it is so sad to see so many people buying the most expensive things (throwing their money away) on foods labeled sugar free or no sugar added 😦
Confession Time: I actually order my groceries online right now bc I feel like in Daddy Day Care when he stomped on the cereal box but to do this to complete strangers from their buggies might land me in deep shit..lol … so I order online and stay away from the grocery side at Wal-Mart altogether 😉
Years ago I would have argued with you that this stuff was good and diets worked it was just ME. I would have told you that I just didnt have it in me to ever lose weight therefore that is why the diets didnt work… good grief talk about negativity dripping all over those opinions. I was so mislead Diary to think that all the foods I seen in the stores was healthy 😦 No wonder my blood pressure was sky rocketing!!!!
And I cant even get started in how soda (pop) has become a staple of our food industry….. try to go pick up some food somewhere and not order a damn soda you would have thought that I had just told a team of preschoolers there was no Santa!!!! Geesh….. I really do like to drink water and no I dont feel like I am missing out on NOT drinking soda until you look at me like I have a zombie behind me then I am a little freaked out about YOUR reaction.
But Diary to actually lose a ton of weight and not ever buy those foods has me wanting to scream to the roof tops IT CAN BE DONE!!!!!!! and it doesnt have to be hard 🙂
Today was a good day 🙂
I cant say I left the doughnuts alone but I did manage some bananas in today.
My morning schedule is going pretty AWESOMELY which surprises me because I never thought of myself as a morning person but then again I never DREAMED that I would make schedules and lists for my day either…which so happens that I love both…there really is something magical to a WELL PLANNED day 🙂
With this schedule change I have noticed that I just feel better when starting my day…. I am now pretty happy and look forward to the start of an INCREDIBLE work day. Man why did I wait so long to start falling in love with a more healthier, productive lifestyle??? I am truly the MOST happiest I have ever been in my life…. WOW!!!!!!
Treating exercise as a priority of my day really has shifted my mindset to where now I REALLY enjoy & LOOK forward to my workouts 🙂
It had to happen Diary…. I swallowed the healthier living kool aid